my life my path my thoughts

2010-10-03T03:11:00.002+08:00

世界很恐怖。为什么我见不到真心对我好的人。难道每个男人都是要那些东西吗？
什么叫真心的爱对方？

我可以这样才可以坚强的占起来？

我还很想他。我还很爱他。是他不要我。他不要我。他不要我。他已经不爱我了。他不爱我了。

为什么？连什么愿因分手也不知道。是不是我不够好。是不是去我做的还不够。

我给了我200%他还不够吗。为什么他没努力的一起挽回我们的感情。

我很失望。

烟。酒。什么都作过了。还有什么可以能做的？
我真的很不开心。

有谁可以跟我分担？

没有人根本可以了解我。我最不开心是原来我觉得是朋友的，根本没自持过我。

我这样可以坚强的做人？

我很怕。很怕。他活得比我好。很怕。很心痛。

可能随便这样找个人一起吧。但是我做不到。一个没有感情的人在一起。我跟本作不到。

我还可以这么办？

神，你可以给我一点答案吗？

2010-09-27T00:14:00.002+08:00

现代生活，越来越多学生离开家被送外国念书。
缺少了家里人的爱，就是这样，人就分不清楚到底两个人在一起就是为了爱或是为了一个伴。
这个世界到底有多少个真爱？机会是0.00001 %。我不会在相信真爱着一回事。
这样，而人为什么要爱？

人怕寂寞。

因为我都会。

A post for bunny

2009-06-12T14:36:00.003+08:00

Special post for miss bunny:

*if only you remember this particular emoticon that appears in ebuddy.com

2009-05-23T15:35:00.002+08:00

Just a quick note. a joke in fact.

woke up this morning with the clock at 10.15. struggling in my dreams forcing my mind to be awake and get my ass off from bed to gym.
so there's this body attack class at 11 which i intend to attend since ages.
pretty excited about it. no time for proper breakfast so i managed to have two teaspoons of yogurt.
Met one of my friend there.both excited cuz its our first class.

I thought body attack classes are fun and requires less stamina compared to body combat, rpm etc etc. but it proves me wrong. from the first beat itself, we have been jumping up and down non stop, doign this and that kicking air clapping fingers in the air, star jumps. Not good.
i started having difficulties in breathing after 10 minutes.
could feel my heart pumping fast. the adrenaline rush. and a'lil bit of dizziness.

wtf. 10 minutes. this proves my stamina is not so great afterall =.=

as i turned around at my friend checking out how shes doing . she was shock with my pale face pale lips . i was lucky she's there, if its not for her i would have continued the class until it ends or maybe i couldnt even manage to follow and drop on all my four by then everyone would be looking at me .
so we went out of the class after 1.5hour and left for sauna.

The moral of the story: chuck in at least some SOLID food before doing some extreme movements.

How could i forget my energy bars my newly bought wholemeal bread? Tsk tsk tsk tsk.
Such a big head prawn.

okay. off to work. ciao the miao.

2009-05-18T15:43:00.001+08:00

Your card made my day =D
yes its a surprise. what i like most.
and, you've done it well.
HAHAHAHHAHA

lots of love
from me to you ( you know who you are)

2009-05-17T18:45:00.002+08:00

Why?
The question i always ask which practically annoys everyone
but why?
why am i doing this to myself?
and i came to a point that i realised i'm still holding on.
and why you?
of all people why you? i really hate the fact that i still miss you.
i teared whenever i come across pictures of you.
the pain is unbearable.
its only a tiny line between love and hatred.
so tell me.is it love or hatred?
bring me back to the light.

2009-05-13T01:11:00.001+08:00

ahhh..... the taste of being 21. =))))))...... will update more bout it soon.

thankyou all for the wishes.it means alot.

Highlights of the month

2009-04-25T11:31:00.007+08:00

Highlights of the month 1 :

i'll be $70 poorer every four weeks for the next 12 months
Q : Why
A : Cause I joined Fitness First. -_____________________________-

Its too late to say No right now cause i m already a member. and ive been there quite a few times and had a few session free for a personal trainer. leaving me with sore muscles right now. could even feel the pain when i cough. but its quite worth it though, IF i conitnue having the determination like i do now. =P and hopefully i do. and my goal is not to 'refill' my wardrobe until i get back into shape.

Highlights of the month 2 :
Barossa Valley( not again! but this time with the real taste of wines)

the car of the day

Mr.Driver +Mr.Organizer of the day.
MR.organizer cracking his head

another visit after 4 months

the girls of the day

wine test wine testing123 at JC's.

the lunch of the day. the BIG Bloody Burger.
and i swear it is really the big bloody burger as in the menu.lmao

i know they love me=)

copycat of the day

thedamnfeet

the king of the day

and the queen of the day

the whispering wall

the family photo taken

the brokeback mountain

the'must-take' Bollywood

the perfect scenery of the day

the Rockford's

and not forgotting

THE PHOTO OF THE DAY

wtf.hahahahahahahahaha.

a fruitful trip afterall =)

Congratulations its Graduations.

2009-04-08T10:32:00.012+08:00

apa khabar kawan kawan sekalian. its really been a WHILE since i've uploaded any photos. lol.i believe all my previous posts must have bored you guys to death. and here i am today to feed your needs. *shys*wtfhere are some of the photos from me attending my friends graduation last week.

SueSue's big day

yay.i'v got two bouquet of flowers.Not from him.dont worry.

Look at this look at this. isnt this sweeeeeeeeeeeeet.awwwwwwwwwww.

Perfect

and i love my dress from behind.

c.u.t.e

Let me introduce you my friends. yourstruly from the left,Sue,Kenny, Eunice and ChiHou

after the ceremony, i was seriously tempted by them for lunch and skipped my FRench class. =P
and up we went to the hills and had a scrumptious lunch with the best taste of Germanbeer. (and oh i had another class after French which i did not skip) we were supposed to drive to Melbourne but due to some unforeseen circumstances we went up to the hills instead. HAHAHAAAAA

the Freshgrad and i

German beer which tasted like banana.because its supposed to be banana flavoured beer with no bitterness.
*and so i had beers before class*wtf.

German sausages. its all abt G.

the best photo of the day.
HAHAHAHAHAHAA omg. they looked damn gay together.

OK.so the next day was Kenny's turn. and by the time i arrived. i see only a few leftover pathetic grads. and my friends were all ready to leave -___________- okayy.and the only photo i took with the freshgrad of the day was

this -___-
oh and btw this is Kenny the clown.

and this is Kenny's gf . Jac.
they both work with me in diff places.

And so, later on,we went for coffee and a Greek cuisine which i 'd give 8out of 10.

Basically i had quite some fun eventhough last weeks was supposed to be assignments and tests week. And now what do we look forward to?
the EASTER BREAK!!!!! yahooooooooo.....
Tell me whats your plan.

Gotcha

2009-04-05T14:28:00.002+08:00

what' s the meaning of kissing if he's not the one?

things i witnessed will never get me back to the game of L.

里一个世界是否有猫无偷吃鱼？

Coffee , tea or me?

2009-04-03T12:03:00.003+08:00

awake by a phone call from a friend asking
" eh ! wake up ! liquor beer or wine? please choose one." O.O

-_________________________-

i cant wait for tonight.

2009-03-29T01:17:00.002+08:00

Is it always too late to realise how good your family is when you somehow get to listen to others background?

I think im really blessed. at this point of time, im glad. glad. with what im having now.

Thankyou. Thanks for what i've been given.

2009-03-20T20:34:00.002+08:00

im so friggin tired right now. i dont wanna complain bout my boss anymore. if i quit. ill miss working wit my friends. but if i dont. i work without motivation. =( assignments pilling up. byebye holiday. no more alcohol.

"when a girl is quiet. there're million things running through her mind"

2009-03-16T22:25:00.002+08:00

I think. its time.to feel so sorry for myself.

Hello again

2009-03-10T15:40:00.003+08:00

just for your information,

MY BLOG ISN'T DEAD YET

and just because we dont have the internet connection yet, please dont ignore my pathetic lil'blog. wth.

but nyway, just a short update from me . and beware i wanna YELL to everyone that i'm safely back in Adelaide yo! after the SO-TIRING-JOURNEY from hometohome which really took us exactly 24hours. and what top the exhaustion was us partyin' three days in a row. =D too happy to be back home with the FCs.
and oh yeah- its Ang Khian's birthday if im not mistaken. no point wishing her here because she claims that my blog is boring. Bluek! But at least i remember.

Bye~! *runstoclass*

Bon voyage

2009-03-05T00:00:00.002+08:00

I can't believe i'll be leaving in less than 12hours for a 24hour journey back to Adelaide.

Goodbye and take care my friends.

There's a reason why God gave us friends

2009-02-15T21:31:00.006+08:00

Because they share, they care, whether near or far apart

Because they see you through glad times and sad times

And such friendship is priceless

The circle of friends with no beginning or end =)

2009-02-13T00:25:00.002+08:00

If only the wound could heal , the scar never stays.

shits emo now -_-'

Rumah Manis Rumah

2009-02-06T23:43:00.002+08:00

setelah tujuh bulan aku meninggalkan rumah, aku finally dah tiba rumah. dan sudah lama aku tidak berbahasa. ya allah bahasa aku sangat mengelirukan. hahaha...

YAY!!! im finally home.
can you believe it?
its already 1/2 year but it seemed tht i ve left for only a couple of months.
i had really enough and good rest these few days and it felt heaps good at home =D
and ohmg so many things changed in ipoh.
Minnie is so-not-mini anymore . she s so fat and chubby so not cute =(
new neighbour with new dog. i so hate the dog.
new roads. new billboards. new shops.
the best is new government =.=

i have tonnes of things to do but so lil' time for me
i miss chillin' in kopitiam
i miss driving recklessly like a typical msian driver
i miss watching tv
i miss all the food in ipoh. so cheap and yummy
and i reckon i can't lose any kilos here T________________________T

alright guess its time for me to cao now. will be watching movie with SS and S tmr =D
Goodnight!

Updates Updates

2009-01-27T13:39:00.003+08:00

Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Ok , thats a long hello to proof that its really long since i last blogged. and im still here. alive. breathing.
before that,
Happy chinese new year to everyone.
alright maybe not that happy after all.
atlast something different on the first and sec day of new year.
Rather than spending the new years at grandma's house,like how i did for the past 20years.
S and i both went to Chinatown for lunch and went home in two hours time.The whole town was so so so dead as it was Australia national Day and a long weekend.

There's nothing much to do. Guess this is it.
and i had a night shift as well, which was alright not busy compared to last week.

God must be testing on me.
Last week i had mostly full shifts day to night and i even had to go for 3jobs a day from 7 in the morning til 11 late night.
i was both mentally and physcially exhausted.
Its not even normal shifts but another crazy shift lacked of staffs but orders pouring in, walk-ins one after another asking for

table for 2 table for 5 table for 7 .

it was shits crazy. tonnes of dishes in the kitchens to be served, tonnes of drinks to be made for customers, tonnes of orders has yet to be put in, phone kept ringing. and it was only two staffs working outside serving where thr were more than 10tables with customers.

Three things a waiter has to do :

please the chefs- to make life easier or else its your own hard time cuz most of the time u gotta work wit them
please the boss- cuz he pays yr salary
please the customer- cuz customer is always right

i know its actually nothing compared to what other people had gone through.
i shouldnt have whined at all.
but i can't help thinking that im actually so weak and i should have done better than that.
and iim telling myself, i am gonna do better than that.

ThankGod, as for the lion dance night, it went pretty smooth, as i already had great experiences on weekdays, unexpected situations and customers. that night was nothing. but there's another night to come, this coming Friday, where we are expecting more people to come for the lion dance.
it seemed that lion dancers here are Heroes even though they dont perform really well, because i reckon thats the only team in Adelaide. Everyone cheered for them and round applause, which was too much for a reaction. its just a lion dance anyway. small lion head. bleh. not nice wan.

Guess what. Its 5 and1/2 days to board on plane and fly home! S has been counting the days every time we talk or everytime we do something, she'll go , " Five more times we do this and we'll be back home " or " this is the last few times we"ll do this before we are back home" -____________________-

but im excited as well, sometimes i do, sometimes i dont. when it comes to weekend, i so damn wanna go home, but when its the beginning of the week, im alright with it, cuz at least i'v got something to do.

I've got such a great list to do and to eat when i reach home. but the most i wanna do is to stay home.
i wanna stay at home.

i wanna watch every channel of astro 's got kao kao.

i dont mind washing cars for dad everyday.

i dont mind bathing Tony and Minnie. i dont mind cleaning their poos. Oh wait. maybe i do. LMAO!

i dont feel like eating outside,

i wanna stay home and eat i'll ask mum and dad to dapao for me.

i've got such a bloated face i dont feel like meeting anyone.

i bet ally ng's gonna be the first one to point and laugh at me kao kao T_T

and before i leave,

just a sincere wish to Siew Sin and ally,
to let you know, that you're not forgotten,
HAPPY 21ST
to both of you.

alright i gotta meet S. see all of you when im back.

2009-01-18T12:04:00.003+08:00

Fuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... .... such a hectic week. and at last, we are done moving in, but without electricity..til tomorrow.

These few days had been absolutely crazy , im both physically and mentally exhausted
i have been working full day since Thursday, packing and moving at a same time
but i m really glad Vincent's still around,helping us to move our stuffs.
and after 6months

we now have 5cinapeks ( those redwhiteblue bag HK's trademark bag) bag, few boxes, and our 6luggages to move.

but i really need to thank my both mates to help moving the stuffs while i was working.

for more photos click here.

This morning, its two more lonely people joining the world. Our Vincent left us for Gold Coast , leaving us to stay in his house til tomorrow.

ok, lets not talk about house,

Let me talk about work, yesterday was absolutely insane. it was full house from i start at 6 till 1o. we were obviously lack of staffs, even when boss and lady boss came to help.
and kitchen was a mess, everything went wrong, ppl dining in, phone calls, take away deliveries.
and to make things worst was, i almost dropped the leftover rice on my customer as my right hand was already weaker than my left.
Thank God, i was quick enough to catch in on time.
At a point of time,i nearly teared in front of the kitchenhelpers and told myself i have to quit this.

It was a little bit of everything tht created the nightmare yesterday. It was so worst that our boss got fucked and nearly hit by the customer. That customer was so angry with everything and had been complaining throughout the whole dinner, we understand because it was his wife's birthday. his wife even cried . It sound kinda dramatic though. But i could really hear him fucking my boss.

Sigh. and i might have more shifts this coming week. T__________________T
and thanks to our money minded boss, to boost his business, he invited lion dance for Chinese New Year.. this Sat night, and everyone's so excited about it, you know la, angmoh ma..lol
and we were told yesterday was nothing compared to this coming week

its gonna be 100++ customers , 8 staffs, 2chefs,4kitchenhelpers, and one night.

i am gonna be so DEAD.

but im really really glad tht

the FCs were here with me half my summer holiday

my dearest babe who helped in bits and parts when iwas in difficulties

newly nice found colleagues
which has already left as well =(

sometime to indulge in good food

and thts what i ve been surviving with til today

im gonna be dead meat this coming week,
but im not dead yet.
mwahaha

2009-01-15T22:31:00.002+08:00

The clock showed 5 in the morning. twist and turn on bed, memories for the past 6 months flashed through my mind for the 3 hours.

I had exactly 2hours of sleep last night, and 12hours of work today.

And why am i not sleeping at this hour, thanks to Mr.Lipas playin hide and seek with for the past two hours. FReaking me out walking around here and there. i finally got it covered with my dustbin.

This coming sunday, there are two more lonely people joining the lonely world, for our Vincent is leaving us, remaining the both of us.

After all the hassle searching high and low for getting a new place to settle down. we finally got a nice bargain.

Inspection on Tuesday. Confirmed on Wednesday.Sign contract on Thursday. Moving in Saturday. This Saturday. Fast and efficient,ain't it.

Never looking accommodation on your own you'll never know how tough it is to get a suitable shade for yourself. Not to mention sharing with different people you meet in this world. I totally understand because i had experienced for the past two years.

Decisions made changed from time to time. demands everywhere. too many people to please at a time.

6months.2days.
exactly the period ive been away from home. Do you still remember me? I wonder.
wept a lot when i started working on three jobs.
breaking down now and then and insomnia at night was a routine.
disappointed with myself for being so weak again.
dislike the jobs im having when i know im suppose to be glad i even earn on my own.
but coping three jobs at a same time within peak period and pleasing so many ppl at a same time was really tough.
it was beyond my limit. it was then when i started eating and snacking non stop.
whenever i have free time. the sweeter the better.
i thought i should reward myself and treat myself better after all the hard work. but it wasnt satisfaction i get in the end. its 5kilos in two weeks and a goddamn round pumpkin face.

But everything gets better after activities we do ever weekend.
Apart from the troubles looking for a place to settle down, we had so much fun even if we catch up wit each other during the weekend no matter where we are.
Quite a few places we've been to within these few weekends even its around Adelaide.
*Photos in Facebook, feed yourself there.

I did not regret for the decision i've made, its once a life time great experience understanding how hard earning money was, meeting different types of human being, going through process dealing with every type of human being. knowing who the real person behind the mask is.

I pray that everything goes smoothly tomorrow. I really do.
If it goes like how it was planned, S and I will be stayin in a brand new environment this Saturday without Broadband service til we get back, getting used with everything again, cleaning up, so much to do, only 2 of us, but i'm glad there're 2 and not 1.

Not forgetting bidding goodbye to Vincento on Sunday, and thereafter counting the days to go home.

Love,

Jean

2009-01-15T13:01:00.000+08:00

Please. I dont wanna fall sick at this moment.

Its 2009 !

2009-01-05T23:17:00.005+08:00

hello hello its 2009 and how are you people sorry for the late updates. No resolution for me cause i'm not gonna keep it why bother making anyway =P

Instead of witnessing my favourite fireworks with the onion ong, vinegar leong and ramentan, i was starving terribly waitin' for food with my colleagues and boss. its the first time i'd say i love my boss -____-

I spent

- the first day of my 2009 lazing around vinegar's apartment with dominos pizza and movie.

- the weekend splurging on delicious food desserts and sunset up the hill,clubbing, visiting vineyards wine tasting lavender farm with only 3hours of sleep in between =D awesomeness.

Oh so can't wait for this coming and last weekend with the vinegar and ramen. T_T

I'm so blessed with people around me =D

p/s : credits for S for this perfection. Please feed yourselves with photos in my facebook.

2008-12-30T21:18:00.002+08:00

OMG

no job= no income= free time= shopping= death =X
hooked by Sue and Eunice today.
The minute we met in the shoe shop, I was fed like a baby with heels , flats, boots by both of them.

E : eh what size are you
Me: 7
E: oh same wit S then..nah take this one take this one
S: eh this one nice.. try try
E: eh this one also/ the colour very nice. try
S: eh eh this one very sui ah buy la buy la.

-______________________________-

and there it was til i met my black satin heels. $50AUD. should i get it or nooooot? its only a heels i dont get to wear often, which hurts my feet, where i have to work 5 hours, dont know how many customers to serve, how many glasses to clean, how many rounds walking to kitchen, how many times answering the phone.But it looks so gorgeous.

Should i get it Should i Should i Should i?

Quote of the day:

People seem not to see that their opinion of the world is also a confession of their character.

-Ralph Waldo Emerson-

2008-12-29T20:08:00.002+08:00

Windy day.

Seeing friends meeting up and catching up with each others makes me jealous

No, Im not gonna say i miss home yet.

BUT the truth is I MISS EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU.

I can't believe the Singapore trip has already been a year. I wanna be there again with both of you.

Greetings

2008-12-27T21:09:00.007+08:00

Hello helooooooo!!!! I'm back after such a long break. not really that long though. but i felt its heaps long even it was only 3 days of break.

so tell me how did u guys celebrate christmas. I supposed some of you must have celebrated with families, or with friends hitting the clubs or maybe a mini gathering in someone's house.
oh well, mine was a lil' different this year. ehm. maybe totally diff. I spent my christmas in a car.

Im way too lazy to list down what happened durin' christmas, because its a looooooooooooooong story.

We managed to rent a car so we agreed to go for a road trip to the Great Ocean Road which is 8hours of drive away frm Adelaide. So since its the first time renting a car why not drive a bit further to make it worth the value. -_-

25th dec08

Started journey at 230am , reached at 1030am. not until we realised we couldnt make it to the 12 Apostles. So we head back after snappin a few photos from Port Campbell. And dropped by the Lobethal Lights which is a village with houses decorated with beautiful christmas lightings, but realised we were too early for those lights and head back to the city to return the car. and reached home at 9pm of 25th dec 08. which was a 16hours of drive. There goes my christmas in the car. survived through sandwiches and snacks and a CD throughout the whole journey. A failed trip. sigh.

26th Dec08. Boxing Day.

- invited up to the hills again by aunty poh and family for an open house.

- malaysian food, malaysians, great new friends, unlimited drinks supplied(alchohols to be specific)

- karaoke session from noon til late night

- first time steppin into a cinema after 5 months.for twilight.

- a day i really really enjoyed myself after so long. i even slept with a smile on my face.

27thDec08

AUSTRALIA'S HUGE SALES OF THE YEAR *faintfaintfaint*
We have been waiting for this day to come since few weeks ago, because we were told its the big sales every year and the malls open early in the morning and give away vouchers for the first 50 customers. but we were too tired to queue for the vouchers. but anyway, it turned out to be normal sales. i hav no idea why ppl were so fascinated bt the sales.

Surprisingly, i have got only a few items and they cause a huge hole in my pocket.
there goes my few weeks of savings. *faints* its just so not me today.

Started work again today at 6.
sorry im not whining here but i have reasons why the workers dont like the HK boss.
Let me list a few examples.

Scenario 1
4 dine-in tables. 4 waiters/waitresses. All tables settled, means all well-served. Two waitresses already walkin around. 1 in the kitchen. another behind the bar cleanin up glasses.

so S 's cleanin the glasses at the bar place.
Boss: S , you know i can hire my maid to do what you re doing you know. Go out and serve customer.

What the heck??? if u can hire your maid then why dont u bring your maid and do our jobs then. if thats not our job whose job are those? and all customers are served what else can we do? isnt it pretty annoying walking around and watching ppl eating???? well i'll be annoyed if im the customer.

Scenario 2

the boss wont be ard til 8-9pm. so he calls every half an hour to check. and nobody like to pick up his calls. so the pretty unlucky one picked up today.

me: hello .
Boss: hello who is this.
me: oh jean speaking
Boss: ok where s Sue
Me: Sue's serving
Boss: So Sue is serving and what about you. you dont need to serve customer?
-________________________________________________________-

A long pause.
eh boss, if everyone has to walk around and serve customer,like wht u want us to, who is gonna pick up yr blardy phone calls?

出声又被人骂无出声又被人骂。
做人无易做好人更难。

Quote of the day :

Everything happens for a reason =)

FAKER

2008-12-23T14:42:00.003+08:00

* WARNING: RUDE POST AHEAD. NOT SUITABLE FOR KIDS BELOW 18*

Fakers.
Who doesnt hate them?
despite hating them, part of me are transforming into one day by day.
i fake smiles. i can fake smiles. i fake smiles everyday.
in a second i could go spreading my wide big white bunny teeth and greet each and everyone,
and just in difference of seconds i could just put it off (or mayb cursin silently in my heart. thats if they are fussy or whenever its busy) the minute i turn around.

i am a fake smiling barbie doll.

BUT
I WILL NEVER FAKE ONE whenever i deal with RUDE customers!!
RUDE CUSTOMERS GODDAAMN IT YOU DONT HAVE TO FREAKING YELL AT PPL ,DO YOU?
m*th* f*****. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i would just like to yell at you back. mind me for being rude. i just couldnt stand rude customers at busy hours which make things get into disorder manner which pretty much annoys everyone who s workin.

SIGH. what a big relief. sorry. i dont mean to whine it all here. i knw i shouldn't be whining at all. because i know im lucky. but between this break i ve got nobody to talk to and i would really wanna spill it all out. what i dislike and what ive encountered during work.sorry guys. SIGH WHY LA why am i turning like that. i dont wanna be a faker. i dooonnnn wannnnnn tooooooooo.
anyway, its a good way of controlling temper. heh.

before i realise. its already 5.24. which means get ready for fake smiles.
ohhhohh restaurant 've gt big booking today which means busy busy busy!
busy is good. no customer is no good.

I Love my m'sian lady boss,because she treats us real good. i would really love working for her eventho she pays lesser than others.

I hate my HK boss, but i have to work for him because i entered through a friend of mine, and i wouldnt disappoint him since i ve already promised so, no matter how it goes, i hav to continue it tho.

I would really wanna work with my Italian boss, cuz she pays the highest, but she doesnt have fix shifts for me. So all i gotta do is wait.

and last but now least,

I would really really really really really wanna work for Hahndorf , cause the whole family is tooooo good to be true. they are lovely and i feel homely whenever im with them. i dont mind paying less or the troubles goin up the hills. BUT I dont think i can make it. T_T

How Cow Now WOW . gotta run for work . CIAO.

2008-12-19T22:25:00.002+08:00

I hear and I forget.I see and I remember. I do and I understand.
-Confucious-

Yes. I do and I understand. But how amazing can that be when boss expect us to know everything before having a try doing it or even heard of it, when he himself knows nothing about hospitality but runs a few restaurants. what.
YOU THINK WE ARE SUPERMAN?

More challenges to come.
Hang on there.
Seeing friends of mine bidding goodbye one by one makes me feel sicked. Home-sicked.

Bye Jac and Kenny. *Wavewave* The cutest couple I've ever met.

2008-12-18T21:27:00.001+08:00

Study the past if you would define the future

-Confucious-

Have mercy on me.

2008-12-18T14:57:00.002+08:00

Brrrrr.....blogging live from V's place, with V's lappie, on V's couch, me alone,(cuz he left me for glenelg.wtf )
in this familiar yet not home,place.

An hour more to work in Unley's. Mehhh...... Just completed the too-why-lite.

and Rundle Mall's already closed. My fav Cibo's closed. Everything's closed. Sigh. This is Adelaide.

Ok. Seriously I've got nothing to blog abt.

Life has been dull. Work, Work, and more Work, and cook and cook, and eat and eat more, gain more weight and watch dramas, movies, stupid movies, dumb movies, like the house bunny. superdumb.
Read, and stalking real estate and domain.au for houses to move in next year.

Fussy customers,Lazy colleagues,Hamsap Kitchen helpers drive me crazy. @.@

Can anyone please suggest some activities? without involving alcohols, money, transport yet fun? pleaseeeee pleassssee...Oh uh..its gonna be a boring weeeekendd.

Gotta run for work.

Ciao.

2008-12-15T20:26:00.004+08:00

Ashamed of her past, lessons learnt.

From strangers to friends, from friends to lovers, from lovers to strangers.

A cycle, that she believed she was cursed.

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So how do you like my new header? *credits for S*

I loved it , haha duh, i wouldnt have use it if i dont.

Catching up with long lost friends really do feel good. So lil time , so much to talk about. Girls never fail to do so, dont they?

Im tempted to go home too.

But , good news from my evil boss, urgh, did i tell you this restaurant i ve been working, i never like working there, because the boss is just so fussy about every single thing, and the kitchenhelpers are as hamsap as chow sing chi.
i was told that not to get near to the kitchenhelpers because one of my colleague was being molested on her second day of work.
besides, one of the man even smelled her hair from behind without her knowing.
they claimed she's the best lookin' with the best body figure among all.
they also asked if another colleague of mine's ass are firm or soft?
DAMN? what sort of question is that.
they comment on each and every single waitress who comes for work.
and what i found out was, they even talked abt me, -______________-
they only commented on my height. alhamdulilah. since i never hav great body figure*coughcough*

but last week was the first time i really enjoyed working eventho the boss was there, and i realized colleagues are really important tokens in a working atmosphere.
Screw boss's presence. and just chill.=D

but anyway i was saying he called, he called for more shifts!

So, its Yay or Nay?

2008-12-14T19:23:00.003+08:00

Hello hello. assalaimulaikum. lama tak jumpa tetamu tetamu sekalian.

Sorry for the MIA . nothing much happened last week.
Speaking three languages as usual.

but had an insane weekend with my budds here.

absolutely insane.

and oh, results were out, thank god for no failures this semester.
i wanna thank god, my parents, my brother, my sister, and my doggies and my friends, those who supported me all the way through, without you all, i would not have the chance to be who i am now. wtf.

anyway,
its a start of a new week tomorrow.and the same old routine begins.

Current situation :

in a state of depression.
keepin myself busy by cookin and grocery shoppin' and eatin' non stop.
i look like a monster now.

Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none

-william shakespeare-

2008-12-09T13:04:00.003+08:00

Since someone claimed tht my blog posts are depressed and stressful,

here you are a picture of me doing an ad for sensodyne or oral B -_-

i havent been MIA lah

im just working on thurs sat nights.
just so happened last week was farewell week and wasnt ard to go online,
some ppl thought i went missing LOL!
and put up notices everywhere so memalufyinkan...tsk tsk tsk
*shakeshead*
but

im touched hahahaa..that means you have been thinkin abt me *tears*
lol.

ok lah. havent been blogging much cuz not much to blog abt also. all i do everyday is smile.
smile to customers.wtf.pms gotta smile.
periodpain gotta smile.
serving sizzling hot plate with hot oil poppin up also gotta smile.
lack of sleep also gotta smile.

im going out tonight for David's birthdayparty.
We'll be out soon
sooon
sooon
as in
a couple of hours later.

and i had a freaking dream last night and the main casts were the power rangers ~~(TBS)~~
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hmm i shall tell S about it first.

2008-12-07T21:51:00.004+08:00

Flightless Bird, American Mouth - Iron & Wine

2008-12-05T22:52:00.002+08:00

阴天

简单是罪吗？

今天,

2008-12-04T13:25:00.004+08:00

下雨天

這幾天, 上天被個機會我見識好多耶

我終於見識好多呒同人類

耕然被我發現到其實麻麻煩煩的人特別多

還呒還你覺得你喜歡, 你要, 你死都要一樣耶個樣也就是你的?

如果每個人都是這樣自私哩一個世界還算什麼世界啊?

可呒可以用一分鐘來想一想點樣去股全大局??

呒是個個人都要受你個氣

或者用個腦去想下如果人家這樣對你你會不會覺得難受

是個话

請你馬上用個心去感受下人家的感受才去決定一樣耶吧

如果每個人都做得到理個世界每人就得到評等, 與得到快樂一樣.

钱

2008-12-02T13:30:00.004+08:00

点解理一个世界钱会是大赛？

点解每样东西都是钱而起？

钱是否这样重要？

点解人为钱什么都做得出？

我不是话做耶不好但是点解要为钱而做工?

果然家家有本难念的经

2008-11-30T21:04:00.002+08:00

Monday:

I speak wanton mee, charkweoteow , hokkien mee

Tues to Fri :

I speak sandwich, baguette, breads, cappucino, macchiato, flat white, hot chocolate

Weekend and weekdays night :

I speak PudMee, Pud Thai, Curry, Mongolian Lamb, Thai Fried Rice

Why ?

Because i work in foodcourt, cafe and restaurant
Thats practically my schedule for this whole summer, and
thats probably why im staying here for.

So many hard to please so many bosses at a time.

But
does money or promises come first?
Sigh.

有又烦没有又烦

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2008-11-26T21:15:00.000+08:00

Finally

2008-11-25T22:32:00.004+08:00

Finally, finally, finally

i'm

soooooooooooooooo relief can die.com

just completed my last paper three hours ago

which means, im officially on summer break right now.

On the other hand,
i received a news which i m really glad, indeed, eventhough its nothing much to me
but im really happy for you myfriend, who passed his interview,
and atlast, hardwork does pay off, doesnt it? you are one step nearer to me now, yay!!!!!
free air tickets free flights =D*throwsconfettitojian*

*congratulationsandcelebrations~~*

....
...
......

ok. so now i dont know how to end this post,
and im not going to have my beauty sleep yet either
cause im gonna start my movie marathon
starting from this minute,
yes i mean now,
right now!!!!!!!!
looooooooll

ok to my poor friends who are still muggin their goddamn book

i'll pray

for all of you,

so that time pasts quicker

and

dont worry,

your sun will shine very soon =)

till then,

ciao
the mao

TO

2008-11-24T20:31:00.003+08:00

A SPECIAL FRIEND OF MINE

who thinks he does not even stand a place in our hearts

to prove you are wrong, do you think I even care talking to you or at least try talking to you and make things crystal clear , to avoid misunderstandings and miscommunication between us?

do you think i'd even try after so long? which is already been a year.

you never knew how heartbroken i was last year to lose you as a friend,
from the year we knew , i 've already taken you as someone i could really rely on , someone i could pour everything out when im in sorrow or to share my happiness.

But, after tht incident,
knowing you with your lvl of egoism to the max,
i didnt even dare acted like nothing happened between us

you did not wanna talk. okay, so, we talked less.

you thought smoking was cool. so, you started smoking.

you thought what you did is attractive. so, you did whatever you like.

I am not in the position to stop you from what you were doing, so i did nothing.
But deep down my heart, you think im glad with it?

you never knew how hurtful it is to see you ard everyday but not talking to you like we used to

you never knew how tough i lived my life in that short semester period

you never knew how i gone through my lonely nights in KL without my roomie around and me being ashame of myself, didnt even dare asking you for a bloody dinner, for the past few months.and count yourself lucky to have relatives and siblings in KL.

BUT WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG TO DESERVE THIS

what have i done wrong to deserve the way u treat me

what have i done wrong to avoid you , to care how you think of me, to be afraid of miscommunication between us, to try speaking to you nicely, to be honest?

you think i even give a shit if you re nobody to me?

you think the way you talk is cool
you think you are the smartest person on earth knowing everything before i can even start explaining
you think whatever your decision is right
you think you are the biggest boss on earth

many times, i tried getting and understanding your needs

but it seemed your egoism has reached to a level tht i can't take it anymore.

If you think what you are thinking right now about me is right. Go ahead.
Since you don't even accept opinions,
it is meaningless for me to say a thing. not even a single word.
it is not worth my energy trying to get things clear with you.

i am truly disappointed.

Today

2008-11-24T18:36:00.003+08:00

AT this hour, at this minute, at this second, I AM SUPPOSED TO

since tmr's my final paper..woohoooooooooo

*congratulationsandcelebrations~~*

BUT

HELL NO..

Basically, I've been lazing around
doing nothing the whole day
and not until i decided to go for a jog rather than
staying in this place for the past three days!
so, i jumped into my gears at 4
and started

jogging

jog

and jog

ACTUALLY...its more of breeze walking
...hahahaha

came home at about 5 and
start preparing for dinner

*chopchopchop,tossandturn,and fryfryfry happily*
nearlyburnt myfinger,wtf*

started eating like a hungry beast at abt 6++

*plays bennybenassi's satisfaction*

tried to study awhile after that

BUT

nothing goes in my brain,

I couldn't help myself walking
ard the room,

i bet my roomie is pretty annoyed. :P

Still couldn't settle down,

so i took a bath

and i just couldn't stop myself from stuffing snacks into my mouth

till now, im still holdin' my biscuits.wtf.

CURRENT MOOD:

*selambaaaaaaaaaaaaa aje*

I bet somebody should just
SLAPSLAPSLAP
me

or

would you wanna try
pinch my chubby face ??

2008-11-23T21:45:00.000+08:00

I miss you.

2008-11-22T20:53:00.004+08:00

damn. you just have to make me write this post.
AND
Yes! Before anyone starts pointing finger at me saying im fat. or omg hwanjean gained weight. hwanjean is chubby right now...

YES I GAINED WEIGHT I GAINED WEIGHT I GAINED WEIGHT. I ADMIT I GAINED WEIGHT

Four months ten days ago today, i looked

like this.

and today,

i m looking
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like this.

Fats conquered everywhere around my body.
As you can see in the pic above, my arms, my face esp,
very obvious, fats everywhere but NOT AT THE RIGHT place at all.

I gained weight. SOoooooooooo WHAT???
I've already had my holidays planned. nicely schedule for healthy exercise
when im back in ipoh coming feb.
allyankf. you are so gonna join me everyday.
hahahahahahaa.

anyway, you guys must be wondering whats with all the monkey posts recently. hahahahaha. Well, i was just too busy to write the past few days as its exam period , to cut things short, posting an emoticon with expressions is absolutely fast, efficient and heh cute.

okok...gotta get back to cheatshit. lol. byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

xoxo, (im so tempted to watch gossipgirl.damn)

chubbyjean

A sneakpreview

2008-11-22T19:04:00.003+08:00

of me after one two three four months and ten days in adelaide....

Changed? Yes? ??No? Will update more later after exams. Ciao!

its hilarious

2008-11-22T17:45:00.003+08:00

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2008-11-21T18:05:00.002+08:00

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2008-11-21T00:19:00.003+08:00

2008-11-19T17:50:00.001+08:00

2008-11-18T19:57:00.001+08:00

"Exam's" in the air.

2008-11-17T19:18:00.003+08:00

*Sniffsniff*

So stress can die.com.

How on earth did the spm students sit for 3 blardy papers in a day?
I wonder.

They are just absolutely brilliant. utterly incredible.

I can't do that.
Unfortunately both my papers fall on Wednesday. with one and half hour break in between.
which I think is only enough for me to visit the loo and have a few sips of caffeine and then back to the exam hall again. Sigh. T___________T
Wish me luck peeps.

**Well, I forgot I was once a spm student too.means i was once brilliant and incredible. =P

Birthday Shoutout, again. =D

2008-11-16T22:08:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

CRYSTAL !!!

have a great day,

enjoy life to the fullest,

stay pwetty and cheerful as always =)
and

may all your wishes come true

XoXo,

TunafromHMC

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will update more next time.peeps
final exam tmr.
abit tensed right now.
wish me luck.
ciao.the.mao.

Birthday Shoutout

2008-11-14T19:49:00.007+08:00

Hello hello...how are you today??

*Cloudyday*

i'm doing extremely not fine.
supposed to be happy cuz its pay day.
but spent 90% out of it in less than 2hours!
O.o
but im quite satisfied with the items i've got.
but thinking of the hard-earned money
i still feel absolutely bad.
sigh.

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its time for another birthday shoutout

TO

Mr.Yeow.

hahahahaaaaa.....sorry i think this is the photo i have from the Genting trip, remember?

i know its still early....
but ahh...
its better 'early' than never right.

LOL

yay cheers to jian! you're finally an adult.
ehem. a pilot-to-be .

17th of Nov marks the 'deathline' for me.
but it may be a new beginning for you

All i can do is to wish you the best of luck here =)
Do make your dream come true.

and come fly me back to malaysia for free every weekend.
im too poor to buy a ticket.
wooohoohooo...
so you re the only hope. hahahaaa..

HAPPY BUTT-DAY JIAN !!!

nehh....buttdaykiss for buttday boy from pwettypwetty ipoh girls.

hah, he's just acting innocent and shy when he's actually not!do not let his
mata sepet deceive you,he's completely a bigbully.hahahaha.

anyway,

have a good one, jian.

love,

Tunathelonelyfishfromthebigbigocean
LOOOLLLLLLL

loved

2008-11-13T20:24:00.004+08:00

i feel so loved. =)

so much love from bercham, ipoh, perak, Malaysia.

*click on it to have a better view. photo editor not working*

I believe, its fate.

2008-11-13T13:27:00.004+08:00

I believe in fate

I believe everyone who walks in your life, has a reason.

I believe, shits do happen in our life, with reason.

I believe anyone who walks out from your life, has a reason too.

I believe meeting a new person is fate too, even though he sells eggs in the market .

and,

I believe, there's always a reason for everything.

At least, a hope for me to keep going.

In need of motivation

2008-11-11T14:50:00.005+08:00

last night's incident just ruin my thoughts of learning how to be a real lady, a real lady who knows how to bake,sew and cook, which i really really wanna learn to cover my unlady like personality in me hahaha. It seemed i should just scrap off the plan of learning how to bake which i dont look like one who does baking -_-
today, is just so boring.
today, is tuesday
which means, 6more days to next exam,
what am i doing :
infront of my notes , my lappie, dreaming, facebook-ing, clicked on almost everyones profile and photos, check through every single blog, googled what i m curious of, online shopping, online streaming.

somebody should just come and slap slap me.

random photos.

my workstation.yes .im messy like misshazel too. :P

the ugliest wound i ve seen. my swollen knuckle.
hurt myself when in work, which i didnt even realise, until it started swellin'

current mood : de-motivated

Evidence

2008-11-10T19:08:00.002+08:00

As i'v prepared the report just below this entry, this, is the evidence to prove that we are both criminal now, and to top that we smell like one too. wtf

I believe it must be the cheap muffin mould we bought from The reject shop for 5bucks that had caused the smoke, or else, it must be the wrong instructions they gave, saying it should be baked for 15 minutes, which i reckon it can be done for 5 minutes. In conclusion, the reject shop and the company of the muffin mixture are liable for all the losses and should compensate us instead.

Sara and Jean explodes the muffin cup

2008-11-10T18:27:00.004+08:00

GODDAMNIT. ITS JUST ANOTHER EMBARRASSING MOMENT IN MY LIFE.
ITS NOT ANOTHER THIS IS THE MOST EMBARRASSED MOMENT . I MEAN NOW. THIS MOMENT. WHAT THE FUCK WHAT AM I TALKING NOW.

fire brigade just left a couple of minutes ago. and yes its just because of us. had our mouth itchy, thought of baking some muffins to release some stress. and happily leaving muffins in the oven for a while. and so i continued doing my notes and not until i heard ppl yelling for help. and listening it close , its S's voice, runnin to our room askin for help,cause muffins were burnt, both of us panicked, ran to the pantry and i went, ohmyfcukinggod, that is worse than the one i put off in vincent's place, the smoke comin out from the oven, was everywhere the pantry, the living room, the hallway, and not knowing what to do, lookin at S fanning the smoke away with the chopping board i ran back to our room , and get my notes and fan, and did the blardy same thing, and not until kohei came and asked us to open the doors and windows. which means we were fanning the smoke away with the doors and windows closed. -___- nevermind about that, but do u know how many blardy fire detectors are there in our hostel, it was heaps lots i tell you, damn it i could see the smoke in the air , looking at it helplessly and just let the alarm go on like that. thats it. thats it. we were so dead, everyone came out reluctantly , some coughing , some complaining the heavy smell of it. we all had to stand outside of the building til the fire brigade reach. and our maanger, Dennis, brought our hard-rocked muffins out to let it cool down, and everyone came pointin at it, " who made that, awww, what is that, hey u wanna eat it" and made fun out of it, while both of us just stare and kept quiet. . . . . . . and fire brigade came less than 10 minutes, sort everything out, Dennis was very unhappy about it we coult tell, luckily we are not told to pay the fine just YET. we might or might not need to pay. and now we are both back in our room, both stink, smell of smoke=burnt=hangus, and still panic, and malu, embarrassed cause the whole building knows it was our masterpiece!

a night to relax turned out to be a disaster and now what, can't even continue with my studies, stink like shit ,wtf.

2008-11-09T20:03:00.001+08:00

G.....i......v.....e.........m...e......m...y........p.........a......y..............

=X

Birthday Shoutouts

2008-11-07T21:54:00.004+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY

BELATEd

BIRTHDAY

to

YUEYING the gorgeous

JIA YEE the beautiful

and

ANDREW the mighty

hahahahahahaaa...

sorry guys and girls for the late wishes
due to some technical problems =P
but better late than never right
hopefully it was a great one for all of you
and nice dresses jia yee and yueying. i like =D
andrew chong! heard you had a party huh..must post up alll the photos!
too bad i m not there la...if not can smash cake on your face. hah!

xoxo,

Tuna

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exams coming
and will be MIA for some time.
which means i m officially done with one semester!
time passes too quick. in just a blink of eye.
too fast to believe.
what i've gone throught here so far.

alright peeps. ciao the mao!

Scarred

2008-11-06T00:00:00.000+08:00

Surprisingly,
i fell once again,
at the same old place,
same old bruise.

Its beyond words. I felt exactly the same. like how it happened a year ago. the previous relationship hurt so deep i really dont wanna mention it anymore. If you re a real good friend of mine please dont ask. How weird it is if a slight decision made can be changed in the past, things would never worsened. If it wasnt for the night in murni. If only I could have left earlier for the movie. If only I could resist myself from picking up the calls. If only...I could turn back time, I would never want to take the same road again. It started on the night itself, from murni, facebook, msn, texts, and later on phone calls . Phone calls every single night. Started with pretty well plannings, and went well as planned . Except for the fact that i had to leave in 2 months time. and i knew i couldnt take long distance, i knew it very well, but it seemed that i was strongly blinded by love, it was totally a big mistake . MY mistake for letting things going further, and hoping for things really go on. MY mistake for really trusting every words and promises uttered from his mouth. i've already had bricks around my heart. which was why it took me quite some time to open up myself. Uncertainties. But every words from him, his determination, triggered me a lil.

Not until the day in airport, he showed up, and I could see from his face, he didn't wanna let go, has proven me tht im wrong, he's just not any typical type of guy out there. The assurance i could feel from him , and things continued when i reached. Skype. every single night, everything went smooth and beautiful, and thinking that we could make it til he comes next feb. but not long til matters became worse, that we had to go through the difficulties of a long distance relationship. "we'll see how things go". Used to be my words to him, proving that i had uncertainties which bothered me alot. However, everytime when i mentioned, i ended up being confident again , which was the assurance that he could give, in the same time, me feeling it as well.

Never knew and never thought, the moment of him calling a break would really come about. Yet, promises are still promises, giving each other off would be a better idea. But it seemed giving each other a break and see how things go until he come was just a lie. Excuses like not wanting me to suffer in a long distance is just a lie.

It seemed i m nothing compared to a past four years relationship.
IF you re not ready for the commitment why for heavens sake would you come and trigger my thoughts and feelings.

It took me one whole year to heal from a month relationship.
Last year, i was left without a single word.

How about this then?

i was only left with an answer, " I just wanna remain single"

Do you know that at this moment i really hate you so much, as much as how much i hated my ex

It marked it all.
Its over.

I guess,i had never really talked bout myself in relationship huh, so guess this is it. Failed.

Love? is just not my game.

The last thing i told myself, trust, no more.

Sick-ed

2008-10-29T12:14:00.005+08:00

i think, its time to say,i miss home. i really do miss home,terribly, this isnt any long trip away from home, speed home with my CLK every weekend or once a fortnight after being bored stayin' in KL. its not that case anymore, i think its really time to wake up and accept the fact that i ll be stayin here til not knowing when's the time to go home. even if i get to go home, it wont be long, just a few weeks. and will be flying off again.and i know i suck when i always end up tearing whenever i call home. and holding my breath everytime when i talk to my mum and my dad so that i dont sound like im sobbing. esp when dad reminds me to study well before hangin up. thats just not so tough of me, i know and im hating it.. and not knowing where to go,no signs of the light yet, dont know who to go to, being an insomniac for these tha past few nights. everything came flowing in my mind and i just couldnt stop worrying. T_T

You've got mail

2008-10-27T17:36:00.007+08:00

something amazed me this evening when i got back from work. Colleen, our manager came running after me when i reached my hostel, asking if this thing belongs to me. and something caught my eye...

Princess J and S.

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people must be laughing their ass off wondering who is this self-claimed princess j...-_-
ok let me explain, since i'm staying in a hostel, so our management's the one who manage our parcels and letters and post up in a list for us to collect them in their office. and it is very smart of Colleen who could just make a quick guess by lookin at the initials. LOL.
and nevermind that, yes, i received a parcel todayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
let's see what's inside......

a cute card, minidolls(i chose the green one), IPOH WHITE COFFEE(those who knows me well ,im an addict =P), and JT's madison square garden DVD!!!!!!

*yell for joy* *jump jump jump* Scream* LOOOOLLLLL... a

big big thankyou, kamzahamida,

terimakasih, xie xie,

dou jie, arigatou,

and sarangheyo to a

SUPERSTAR friend

of mine,

ALLYNGKAHFUNG!!

well, she knows what i love best =D eventho ipoh white coffee are sold here but she ignored me and insisted on sending me together with JT DVD *biggestweteyeever* awwwwwww..im so so so so touched babe. she s the BEST bestie ,best companion and best entertainer ever, i swear ! i cant wait to come back and have my breakfast, lunch, tea-time, supper with you everywhere around, babe.

2008-10-22T18:07:00.003+08:00

how i wish i could walk away just like some people do

Beach

2008-10-18T22:06:00.012+08:00

before i start , please allow me to yell for joy.....woooooooooooohoooooooooooooooo weeeeeeeeeeeehoooooooooooooooooooooooooo yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyy haaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!
i m done done done finally DONE with CPL. screw it ! booo. and whats next? hahaha a day off for myself before stressing for upcoming assignments. and yes. we went to the beach, again. but this time, back to the beach we went back in winter, Glenelg. so much difference, in terms of ...in terms of..err in terms of the atmosphere i would say. it was so so so so sooooo crowded, with jessica albas in bikinis and justin timberlakes in surfing pants.....mwahahahahahaaaaa........ and. this time with different activities, not only taking photos walking around aimlessly with our pathetic umbrella. but with our new toy, beach volleyball =D and also S with her new toy, her new DSLR nikon D60. ~~*sheleft meforhernewtoy =(nomorecamwhorepartnerdamnit*~~

ehem..busy 'warming up' while waiting for bus

reached abt an hour later. see wht i mean by JTs with surfing pants *drooledtodeath*

awwww....isnt she cute

look at the crowded beach. . so crowded tht i might probably step on somebody sunbathing wtf

heh. i looked like a small kid here.

can be fcuk's model already la

gotcha.

a "must take" photo.heh, vincent lambat lar.ish.

and basically not much photos taken (but you can check out ma facebook for more, cuz im lazy to upload it here) cuz everyones busy with volleyball and frisbee...and later on i wet myself.no. act ramon wet me. no that sounds wrong wtf. no lar.. actually he dragged me along into the water...and of course i geared up myself before coming with my swimsuit ..*grins* so let him drag lorrr....and enjoyed myself swayin along wit the waves...but i forgot i had my mascara and eyeliners on. so i turned out being a zombie -________-meanwhile S and others went to another side of the beach for photoshoot session. oh uh...we've got more ppl today joinin us.not only the usual 4 of us okay....=D great time with new ppl. so we dilly dally-ed til around late evenin and settled down in one of the bistro for dinner before heading home.

a cup of sundae from copenhagen before heading bac to the city.
the only picture we've got together today =(

gotcha again. lol.
last but not least
the best photo of the day...
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me.me.and just me. with a few seagulls.
taken by S with her new toy
well if you're observant enough you should manage to differentiate which photos are taken by a normal camera or a DSLR.
so basically that s how i spent my Saturday
how about yours peeps??

pyjama fever!

2008-10-15T19:40:00.005+08:00

just a quick review what i'll be havin these coming weeks...and also a reminder to myself

cpl due this friday
f&i due next mon
ada due next wed
QM next mon the week after next
and a test tmr. damnit

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anyway, nevermind the DEATHline and let me show you what i m really despo for right at the moment. cuz i've been searching for the right PJ set for quite sometime cuz i m a choosy and picky in terms of things i really want . and guess what i saw in Myer on monday. its the perfect one! but the price lagi perfect *sobs* basically i could just drool along and stare at it. cuz its blardy exp and tried searching online and found that the prices are more or less the same except for US, its about few bucks less. its blardy exp cuz its Julius and friends =( woooohooohoooooo....

this's the one!

and as i googled along it also comes in men pyjama!!! but sadly not in sets tho. only in pants.
but still, i ll make my man wear it.
and we re gonna be the perfect couple in julius and friends pj set. hahahahaha

just like charmaine and kevin in FH2 if u still remember. ok thats not pyjamas but its what they wear when they were admitted into the hospital in the drama. heh..cute eh. pink and blue.

anyway this is how it looks like. *fuiyoh!! sexy abs!!!!*
nahh.not tht perfect tho as in the colour. but nevermind i ll make my man wear the blue one.
cuz there's pink and blue in the women's set, so my future man is gonna wear the set in blue. mwahahahahaaaaaaa
nyaahahahahahahaahah
ohgawd m insane lol. cpl.cpl.cpl.

anyway, it IS affordable lar *gulps* i can afford it. *gulpsgulpsgulps* but for a pyjama set that costs 69bucks.....and its not like i can wear it out and show everyone my favPJ. unless i dont mind everyone staring at me like a superstar.lol. i'd just be under the blanket for the whole night and change after waking up. unlike S, cooking in our common kitchen with her ~~purple and pink~~ hearts pyjamas. ROFL* =P nyahahaaha..sigh.so deal or no deal?

2008-10-12T22:54:00.002+08:00

current song:

曹格 cao ge - 左右无缘 zuo you wu bian (new song!! cantonese) - 曹格 - 左右无缘

feel like crying after listening to this.
and i miss you playing this song for me. :(

Nonsense

2008-10-11T13:56:00.010+08:00

two nights in a row, loitering around the room and turning our closet upside down,back to childhood moments when we dress up for dolls . but its different now. cuz we dont dress up barbie dolls. we dress up real people. wtf.

and me being dressed up like S.lmao

mua pig face.

this is not another druggie photo mind you..
lol. i know andrew's gona say tht

woohoo...magician from sideways

and i dont know what is this

future bridesmaid for
S and mr.Cheang's future wedding

and this.
some said druggie. some said prisoner in action.wtf
eh hello. andrew chong. druggie with such sexydress?
and
mr.G,female prisoner in such nice dress????
i dont mind being one then.
but i dont break the law so no chance being one .

sisters on the way!
nyahaha. dont we look alike here?

and later on
found something funny on the website

yeap.thats us.a classic one.love the colour and the frame.nevermind the lady.

and hah.thats me.if you do recognise..
with the newly bought bag. ownership by S.
cuz she bought it in a vintage shop.
she damn shopaholic i tell you....
nobody on this earth can beat her..
nobody.i repeat, NOBODY.
i surrender *waveswhiteflag*

bored with dressing and now comes the hair.
dont we look like we're in a salon?
*shys*basically im tryin to say i look like a hairstylist here.

lol.my turn having my hair cut.wtf.
so,
you must be wondering
"suchawasteoftimedamnit"
lmao. i know but thats what we could think of doing on a friday night
sigh.
its gona be a busy week ahead

sayonara everyone.

sigh. omg omg...

my cpl ass...

you.
yes. pointing at you...
the one staring at the monitor
get back to work NOW rightaway
T___________T
think of cpl also wanna cry ad.
*crawlsbacktowork*

p/s:credits to S cuz all the outfits belong to S.yeap none of them are mine. except for the black "hairstylist" dress. and i actually look like a milk maid in tht dress too.T_T

10.10.08

2008-10-10T22:47:00.003+08:00

ANOTHER BIRTHDAY SHOUTOUT!!

let me present you my foundationmates,

the first two friends im really close with,

and so happen they share the same birth date

Joel and Charissa,

mischievous Joel

and those were the days

happy 20th birthday =)

2008-10-10T00:14:00.001+08:00

i feel absolutely depressed and frustrated right now.
dont ask me why. its just in me.

Melting Heart

2008-10-05T01:40:00.006+08:00

if anyone can find somebody
as
HOT
as
this dude is
...........

Im willing to give every single thing, single cent, single strand of hair i have.wtf.

he melts my heart.

2008-10-03T21:02:00.020+08:00

This post is dedicated to :

a girl who claims herself a bunny

a girl who's obsessed with everything in pink.

a girl who enrolled late and came in a week late for the first sem.
Thereafter, she's always late for classes and now, known as Miss Late.

2006

on our way to genting. everyone's so diff now, isn't it.

where everyone has to squeeze into two small rooms.

and i never tried noticing her.
not until 3rd sem of our foundation,
when everyone attend different lectures and tuts.
leaving me with three unfamiliar humans
when i started to spend most of my time with collegemates
with these two people(and also puimin)

omg.pleasedontlaugh people.

not until we decided to move in into this place.

the messiest girl on earth.lmao.

and the journey of our friendship begins.

we had almost every meal together.
breakfast.lunch.tea.dinner.supper.

(omg.i miss cafeteria's nasi pattaya T_T)
spendin a lil bit of time at the playground after dinner.

spending our precious time doing stupid things at night

spending our weekends together.
when everyone's back home and we didnt
when everyone has a date and we dont

omfg. ignore me please.please.please.

tak boleh tahan. have to cover it.

sneaking out in the middle of the night for supper.
to murni's. to mcD's. to ali maju.
ouch. i m missing those days.
mee raja.garlic cheese naan. loushu fun.
T_____________________T
im so sad tht
we didnt manage to try everything in murni
but im glad that you were willin to spent the one whole last week
in murni with me
with that i hav no regrets.
haha.wtf.

To the girl whom i spent my one whole year with,
im sorry im a day late,
but i believe you had great time with mr.quack
i do miss you playing songs for me before sleep
you screaming your lungs out when zara came runnin after you
and you arguing with boss
that would be the funniest thing i ve ever seen
also the thing i miss the most .

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY

TO

MISS HAZEL.MISSBUNNY.MISSKOK.

nah.imaginary pinkcupcake for you. from .au to .my.=P

so much love from,

misstuney =)

henley beach

2008-10-01T15:35:00.016+08:00

SO there're few more days before classes starts and hence, we are trying to maximize our holidays since the plans to melbourne la, pulau kangaroo la, mt buller la were all unsuccessful. so the nearest we could go are the beaches, this time, Henley Beach.

the walk.

the wooden jetty.nice.=)

i didnt know tuna is such an ugly fish -_-
you people can stop calling me tuna already. lol. and i actually dont fancy tuna, i'd prefer sardin more than tuna tho. tuna was just a random nickname given by my friend, and i just realised you guys have been calling me tuna for that long. i guess its already an initial to you guys. its time to change,guys.

a dad with his kids out for fishing.
such a relaxing life making me hunger for it too.

some kids doing freestyle diving.

isnt that cute?
hahaaa. we dont even get to canoe,
and this lil doggy get to enjoy the breeze while the owner's trying hard paddling the canoe.

trying to build a sand castle

and ta-da
-_-
nothing like a castle
looks more like a mosque.

and i googled about sand castle just now and look what i found out!

a sand castle i got from googling. compared to ours. *shakeshead* tsktsktsk..

O.O....merv's damn long.

can u see that?its a mermaid..awesome.

and have a look at merv's masterpiece...
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ta-da. LMAO.

me.with.love.

thats me doing star jump. lmao.and duno whats the one doing behind.

couldnt stand the hot sun so i took out my umbrella. lol.dont laugh. i know i know.nobody brings umbrella to the beach. but i cant stand the sun shining on me and i dont want to be in the risk for skin cancer
T_T

look at that dog. he kept on jumping for his treat.poor lil' thing.

our album cover. credits to S who took the shot.

unfortunately we didnt wait until sunset cuz it was already late and all of us were starving. so we decided to leave and this is the last shot i took before leaving.

thought of heading to chinatown for dinner but somebody suggested to have dinner around that area so we stopped at two stops after hopping into a bus. So we decided on fish and chip and had our dinner for abt 2 hours. After dinner, with great satisfaction, we walked happily to the bus stop and waited for the bus to city. we waited and waited. talked and laugh. making fun of each other. and after quite sometime, took a quick look at the bus schedule and found out there's actually no more bus after 6.20. and it was already 7.30 by the time we finish our dinner. feeling lost, we got a man who's walking his dog, asked the way back to the city. paisehnya. and according him, we had to walk all the way down to get another bus. which is 6 stops from where we were.
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and luckily there were still buses which head back to the city. fuh. what a day. the journey was tiring though, even we didnt do much in the beach but it was indeed great to enjoy the sound of the waves and the breeze. but not the sun. -_- anyway, that was how i spent my Tuesday.
how about you?

lots of lots of love from me to you,

undescriptive

2008-09-29T21:52:00.004+08:00

*****

2008-09-27T00:38:00.003+08:00

sometimes...

i just feel like walking away from the real world

away from the worries

away from the cruel facts

9.95 day

2008-09-25T21:13:00.006+08:00

Its already Thursday! omg. there goes my holiday T________T *goddamnitbluescreenagainhaih* anyways, havent been a p*WTFWTFMYTOSHIBAWASDOWNAGAIN.WTFITSSOANNOYING**

anyway, i was saying this week hasnt been a productive week for me.started partying since last friday night and there's no sign for me stop partyin . lol.First Isobar, then the Big Race, dolphin cruise came along and later on steamboat at Ray's house and spent like 30 hours in his house, which means more than a day in his house and then grocery shopping for one whole day at Central Market and today S and i made a trip down to Harbour Town, a place where all the factory outlets are at one place, it'll take us one whole day. So, alarm's supposed to wake us up at 10. regardless of david cook's sexy voice, i off my alarm and both of us continue sleeping till 12. lol. it wasn't that late tho. it only took us 15 minutes to get prepared. without dillydallying girls can be pretty quick huh.

and off we go from 130 to 700.. =S its so tiring okay. take off clothes put on clothes take off put on take off put on for sooo many times and in the end get only get a few out of so many zillion times trying out. but that can be fun at times. hehehe....and my goal today is to get item's not more than 10dollars. but wth one of my singlet cost me freaking 20dollars due to my careless mistake T__________T im so blind. its only one pathetic singlet and it cost me 20. ya allah. i can feel the pain. its like my fragile heart's been slashed slashed for 10times. when the salesgirl sayin, "thankyou its 29.95...instead of 19.95" but nevermind its made of higher quality material and it makes me look better than those sold for 5dollars.im actually sayin that just to make myself feels better.wtf.

sigh. and i actually have assignments due in week 9, 10 and 11 and a few tutorial works to be done. and see what am i doing during the holidays. omg. kill me laaaaa......

jeng-ness. i want more.

steamboating at 12degreecelcius is heaven...=9

yerr..whose hair!?
wtf. lol. its seaweed la.

us.

us again.

the blardy 20dollars top at top right corner. wtf. but nvm i still love you. cuz i love the colour. and look look at the cat woman top. "maybe he is looking" yeayea hoping for jt to look at me.lmao. and my 5bucks skirt both in diff colours and my 9.95 dress and 9.95 highwaisted belt . 9.95 sunnies. wooooohooooohooooooooooo...bagus bagus. except for the 19.95 singlet =(

anyway thats all for now peeps. gotta sleep early its friday tmr gotta work. sigh.same old routine. some customers are just so nice even one thankyou made my day. but some are just so difficult to please and ruins my day. sigh. anyway, customer is always right. gotta stick to that.

p/s : *sniffsniff* i can sense that someone's gonna ask me for shopping again tmr! cuz its friday and there's gonan be late night shopping. hmmmm..we'll see.

dolph dolph dolph

2008-09-21T20:53:00.015+08:00

As i said last night, Ray planned us something ..so tada~~ here it is.. The Dolphin Cruise. Well, we might or might not get to see the dolphins. but its only 4 bucks anyway. so, we just tried our luck.

4 dollars. cheap cheap cheap.

so there we are..on this boat.

off we go
out to the sea...
but the sun is killin me. =(
and after sunbathin for quite sometime, we finally get to see a couple of them

can see? can see????

nah. 3 of them! =D

wheee! there it is. i didnt took this pic though. Ray did it and unfortunately i was at the other side of the boat when the dolp swam along =(

ooo...terrible eye bags. i look bit worn off here.
lack of sleeep =(

caught this fella emo-ing alone.

sooooo emo til he wasnt aware that i'd stab stab him from behind. hahahhaahhahahaahaaaa....omg.my mouth damn big. can even stuff in a slice of cucumber vertically...hahahaaaa..

-_____________-
i was forced to do this due to somebody's absence.
-_____-
im supposed to be Rose lar. why Jack??

last photo taken before leaving the boat.

and found a place to rest before heading home.....

S&J

and

let me present you a

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a handsome seagull. lol.

thats all for today ...not in the mood though.sigh.
anyways, will upload the photos taken from the big race soon =)
goodnight all!

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birthday shoutout !!!

Happy birthday to you,

You were born in the zoo,

With the monkeys and elephants,

you smell like one too!!!!!

Happy birthday to
WILLIAM LIEW!!!!

mind you. not the local designer william liew.
its William Liew Sin Yoong 02K's King Scoutfrom St.Micheal's Institution Ipoh,
its your big day my dear friend cuz you re turning into an uncle already!!!
hahahahahaahahahahahahaha
and too bad im not there to celebrate with you
to surprise you at 12 sharp in front of yr house or sabo you with cream
i still remember what you did on 12th of may this year. =)))))))
eventho your sarcasm really annoys me everytime you start teasin me but
somehow when it comes to something real serious, you were always there.
and here, i wanna thank you for everything, everything, everything,
its great to have someone like you, always there when i need a listener,
advices when i needed it..really appreciated it much..
and even if im 124325334654674miles away from you.. we are always
sisters for life .hahahahahahahahahaaa....
anyway, hope you re getting along well with your coursemates, and enjoy your unilife....dont get influenced by mun and pay visits to Sincero every weekend. Shhhhh..better dont tell her this. hahaha...she doesnt read my blog anyway :P
happybirthday to you once again. hope you re enjoyin your big day!

Welcome, Spring break.

2008-09-20T17:20:00.010+08:00

YAY!!!! its finally spring break! and the usual five planned to party out the whole night before vincent leaves for gold coast, ngek ngek ngek, partay!.HAHAHAHA.....yay... so yesterday, after work, we started partayin frm 9 to 3. yeah....9 to 3 non stop. we stopped by few bars before settlin down in Isobar , in Hindley, but yuck, the DJ was totally out. cannot make it.. the music was sucky...songs were cut off, remix-ed badly, and wasnt my taste at all . but, luckily they did play my 'must-have' song. if not, it'd b a totally turn off night for me.throughout the whole 6 hours, we jumped like frog and shaked like mad , and we had great fun. but poor S was in pain with her heels and reached a point whr she took it off and danced barefooted. fuiyoh. gengness. lol. so finally we gt home abt 4 with one K.O fella, two tipsy fella and remainin two sober. (me and ray was sober of course no tipsy at all=P and ehem..somebody claimed tht she 's sober, but act she s bit tipsy) and slept at abt 430. and guess wht. david cook woke me up calling me to be his baby with his sexy voice at 8am,(its act my alarm lar hahahaa) to prepare myself for the amazing race, invited by Nat. partied whole night, a 3 and 1/2 hour sleep and yea, a 5 hours hunting race. i wasnt prepared for it at all and thought of just giving it a go since my friend kept on inviting me. i swear this is gonna be the first and last time doing this . it was a all time heart pumping race. esp when u see other groups ahead of us running abt i dont hav any photos wit me right now.but will upload it soon cuz we are required to do ridiculous stuffs. and i think its first time of my life for walkin so much in a day. eventho we didnt manage to win , but overall, we tried our best we were in top10 out of 24teams. top 10 okay! it wasnt easy to reach on time and complete most of the things in the list.
anyway, it was overall an achievement cuz we managed to complete the whole race on time. =D

some of the photos we took last night at Rundle mall.

the golden pigs in Rundle mall

hmmm. garbage tastes good

There are four in total. with names. LOL

empty dance floor.-_________-

the lousy DJ in cap. #$@%#$^%$^

ladies in black.

ya alar...keciknya mataku..T_______________________T

and i think im half paralysed now. muscle aches everywhere. T________________T and Ray planned us smtg for tmr. yay! so its time to recharge. goodnight peeps!

SUPER bad day

2008-09-15T20:35:00.004+08:00

its a freaking bad day. first. assignment due date. confusing answers. messed up coursemates. fine.second. late for work. missed the tram to workplace. went there on foot.to top that,today's weather condition was freakin bad. rained in the morning , wind nearly blew me away, it feels like tornado to me, in the meanwhile, poor me gotta run to work place in such weather, you know when you run through the wind, your 'daya rintangan' increases so u gotta use more of your body energy to stabilize yourself so it doubled your energy and can you imagine how exhausting it is and the worst was when i reached, counter was crowded with starving humans waiting to be served. and colleagues were too busy to give me a look =( of all days, why are all these people coming today.....monday is normally not so crowded with customers. except for today. and it make me feel really bad.

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and i hate tuesdays too. cuz the tutorial is giving me so much work just to earn so little credits

S I G H

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a day in RAS.

2008-09-13T22:33:00.009+08:00

hello peeps.sorry for the late updates. it has been a real busy and tiring week for me. =( trying hard to cope up wit studies and assignments here. and in the mean time with my dramas.wtf. anyway, regardless of the tiredness and exhausted mind, i spent the weekend with the few friends here as usual, to the royal Adelaide show! which is actually what we call a fun fare. but they make it sound more nicer by calling it a show. well, of course it looks much better here provided with terror rides, pet shows, races, game stalls with huge huge toys =D

the parade when we arrived, managed to snap a photo of their butts. and do you know i hate clowns i dunno why i just hate them. cuz they look so scary with their make ups on they actually have to act friendly but i personally think they are scary T___T

insanity. who paid for this ride is insane. its so high up you cant even spot the people on top.

and, Ray and S went for it. hence, they are insane. this ride is crazy okay. being a chicken me, i only stayed down and be their photographer. and what i heard was, this whole royal adelaide show went black out last friday night, for 30 minutes, and people on this ride had to stay there hanging upside down throughout the whole blackout. poor thing.

"people mountain people see"

ferris wheel =D

you'll never see such thing back in our country . but you gotta believe it cuz there's something like this here.

its pig racing. HAHAHAHAHAHahahahahahahhahaaa....
it used to be one of my favourite animal back in high school til some of them called me by nick names. but not anymore now. but trust me..those pigs i see here are so clean okay.

ready, on your mark..

GO!

HAhahahahahahaaHAHAHA...

the pet show. with hundreds of different doggies.
and this is the dog that catch most of the people attention cuz its huge. i wanna bring her home and hug her to sleep everynight okay. how do i know its her? cuz her owner made her wear a PINK collar. so we reckon its a her! hahahahhaahhaa..damn im insane.

a pony.damn.it smells. it doesnt move.it just stood there like a stone. bahh.not cute.

an alpaca. HAHA this is cute.

bored of animals, checked the game stalls, and damn...the soft toys they give away are so huge okay.ngek ngek. so ray and vincent tried out the bball shots.

and ta-da! looka t what we've got! we got a simpson! hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.....
i chose the simpson cuz others aint cute. but eeew....its not a soft toy. it looked soft but actually its hard.dontknow what they stuffed in but definitely not cottons.
the winner.and the price.

well, not only that, after so many attempts on the game stalls, vincent finally won.
we get to choose what we want and a ducky it is .
and S was damn happpy with the ducky cuz its part of her family. lmao.

carebears.carebears.carebears.

hahahahaa...carebears! fanny dear this is for you.
well, i spent most my money in this game but couldnt get one .damnit. =(

not only simpsons and duckie. we ve got a few other small toys.
can imagine how much they spent on the games

ew. erm. a huge one. it looks disgusting but its delicious tho.
anyway, thts how i spent my whole day there. n now im back to work ..T__________T
i cant wait for the break.

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a birthday shoutout
to supernutleong!!

its your birthday . its your birthday! ah huh ah huh.. well, hope its a great day for you
and wishing you a great year ahead. and i'd like to thankyou for everything.
and owh.its mid-autumn festival. also happy mooncake festival everyone!
i want a mooncake .....to my angel, please send me Overseas mooncake. T_T
bahh..just joking. hahahaaaa... anyway, thats all for today.and last but not least,

Yours truly,

a big big hug for all of your back there. assume you re duck and im givin you a big bear hug? lmao.

WOW.com

2008-09-07T22:06:00.008+08:00

omg omg omg omg...omg omg omg omg omg omg.so happy can die.com okay.
hahahaha..it has been a shoppin week for me. when S dragged me along after work on Friday for late night shopping. but it was a complete satisfaction tho. despite the cruel fact that its gonna burn another hole in our pockets we planned to go out early (abt 11? yeah thats very early for a weekend) cuz S's dying if she doesnt get her top by today and yes , we went shopping yet again and i got completely bargain items. completely bargain items okay.mwahahahahaa....HAHAHAHAHA....HEHEHEHEHHE...and omg. i think im going back tomorrow to get the boots.eventho its nt cheap =(. but it was in my mind since after we left rundle. to church. and now back in my room. so i think its a pretty obvious hint that its mine?

us. doing what we havent been doing since months. =P

alot of people have been asking why am i alwys online and not out at night for a walk or to chill. let me please explain it here. first of all, i wouldnt wanna walk to the bus stop and wait for the bus at night and take a bus to the city or to anywhere just to chill? no way man.
this aint KL anymore. plus its assignment week. everyone's busy with their own ass. yea yea yea. it might sound pathetic to you but its what i ve been up to these few weeks.

thats me. trying to smile decently without showing any teeth.but failed =(

i think smile with teeth better lah kan?

gotcha! S trying to mess up her hair.

ta-da
to get a "after-sex" look with her messed up hair and bf shirt. lmao.

great job tho. SEXAY!!

S & J
reminds me of S&J back in malaysia that sells gifts and doraemons and hello kitty stuffs.
hahahahahaha.

last but not least,

yours truly,

p/s : aku sukalah ambil gambar without my face =P
pp/s: ppl ..tell me if i ve gained any weight?

rehab

2008-09-06T01:34:00.005+08:00

rehab centre anyone?

i guess i need one

emotion has taken over my rational mind lately
the answer was pretty obvious when it first started
but being such a fool ,
ive taken a wrong step to let it linger.
so, i guess its time to get myself a good rehab centre.

good ol' times

2008-09-03T22:10:00.004+08:00

heeee =))))))))))))))) i finally got my new header from my personal designer. i promise i 'll buy you a bigbigbig meal when im back okay. you have my word.sigh and i miss you so lar. how i wish i could turn back time and sit next to you despite the fact that we never talk for three months. freaking three months. (muka damn tembok lmao)but i dont mind. =(
i want to sit next to you and hear you snore in class. see you drool on your own book. preparations before gatherings. practises dances with you and lame sketches. and the most embarassed of all, i missed you girls calling me ah chu. T_________T

ignore the peacesign

omfg. please dont laugh at my hair. i had a ponytail behind. its not a boycut.

anyway, to this dear friend of mine, i miss you (and big tree leg) and please remember im not faraway from you okay. sarangheyo.

you hesitate

2008-09-01T00:10:00.002+08:00

talk to me

you speak with me

don't sink before you rise baby

don't fade away
you hesitate
you seemed to wait
for all the time we had
feels like a world away
so who's to say
we'll be okay

we will make it through the night
don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile
cause we're the same
and I know that we'll never change
look, I bought your favourite ice cream
I don't wanna see it melt away
if you walk out now
I don't know if we going to be the same
baby just talk with me
cause I want you to stay here with me
I want you to stay here with me

omg.
so emo.
its more emo when u listen to the song
T_________T
so emo can die.com

goodnight
T_____________T

Moonlight Resonance bravo!

2008-08-30T21:07:00.008+08:00

omg.
kill me la....
how can the ending of every episode so dramatic T_____T and the ending song is just compatible to the ending . this is worse than Forensic Heroes 2 .

this is killing me and i have only 20episodes in hand.
how? how?how?
to carry on or not to???
sigh..

anyway this is the drama im up to now

=))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

anyway, we had a great weekend last week cuz it was S'sbirthday
so we decided to throw her a birthday party.

surprise surpise

and i thought of trying something new
instead of getting her something
so i thought of giving her my first time..

my first time baking
and
i actually triggered Vincent's fire alarm because my first attempt baking failed.
and so happened nobody was at home. except for me.
before i could smell it, the firealarm was alerted
and i panicked not knowin what to do. i ran around vincent s house
searching for switches to turn on the fan.
when i was about to open the door,
a note drew my attention
" do not open the door"
because if i did, it would trigger the whole hallway and the fire brigade'll
will be on their way -_____________-
and i l get fined for 400AUD.
-_______________-
luckily i did not.

anyway, get back to the party.

wine wine wine...

Merv's damn roast lamb.

=)))

some game again

nice outfit=P

a birthday kiss for her

hahahaahaa...my favourite

the farny ones

goddamnit. i wasnt drunk.

the balloons i chose =D

colourful. heeeeee....
i was the one climbing up and down for those
and where has the gentlemen all gone?=(

once again, happy 20th babe.
hope it was a memorable one to you.
=)))))))))))))))))))

yours truly,

At last

2008-08-29T20:48:00.004+08:00

Phhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww...................
.
Finally.....

after all the sleepless night
the amount of coffee consumed
the uncountable pimples

i 'm finally finally finally done with the freaking assignment.
sigh.i think this is the first time i've been so stress with assignment.

but but but
luckily Power Ranger came to rescue eventho they are all the way in Malaysia..
im really really glad the power ranger crew offered me a helping hand like

(consulting classes thru skype -_______- ,

doing my references through pictures)

hahaha i just love technology man. eventho im a noob at it.

*thankyou terimakasih xiexie dojie arigato kamzahamida*

Go Go Power Ranger!

-____________________________-

Anyway, i shall go take a nice hot shower and make a call home after so long and start my drama......the moment i 've beeen waiting for so long.
ahh... satisfaction to the max. =D
for those who are still working on their assignment,
please dont be jealous. your time will come
*cruelladevillaughs*

ciao the mao!

=((((

2008-08-28T13:25:00.002+08:00

sigh

i hate telling myself to stop what i can't

it doesnt feel good at all
...
..
.

会呼吸的痛

2008-08-26T22:05:00.003+08:00

想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛
连沈默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
後悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛

你总说?时间还很多
你可以等我

以前我不懂得
未必明天?就有以後

我的微笑都假了
灵魂像飘浮著
你在就好了

我发誓不让你等候?陪你做想做的无论什麽
我越来越像贝壳
怕心被人触碰?你回来那就好了

能重来那就好了

我和你距离越来越远了
越来越陌生了
如果可以的话我
宁愿我们从没相识

dashing hopes

2008-08-25T21:03:00.003+08:00

Once again its happening
why does the same thing always come back to me
i think its time for me to realise if its within my problem

blank promises.
is what i fear most.
and thats why i dont simply promise anyone..
not even a simple promise

i think twice, or even triple before making a promise
cuz i know how it feels like.

please. dont ever promise me anything.
i'd rather not having it all.
hopes i meant.
false hopes.
false imagination.
false fantasies.
those are all lies that keep you holding on
when you get nothing in the end.

when everything means nothing

2008-08-23T23:33:00.003+08:00

blood.blard.blardyhell.

2008-08-21T01:28:00.005+08:00

T_________________________________________T
im running out of blood.
someone please donate some?

seeee..
its only a blardy pimple and it took away so much of blood from me
sigh.
~~sudahlaheverymonth aku tak cukup~~
why lar.... im already in a fourseason country
but stil my skin has not been improving .yeah its not.
maybe not that bad compared to malaysia.
and that is one of the reason why m here now.
haha. so that i ll have better complexion! =P
but still!
haih.
and its not cheap what ive spent on skincare products.
i feel bad whenever mum has to worry bout my complexion and
pays for the exp skincare products
i have been going to beautician since primary
due to my terrible skin condition.
and i ve even been to dermatologist. it improved abit.
but still its not that flawless and perfect as it could be.

urgh
how jealous could i be when my friends get to eat deep fried fast food junk food spicy hot stuff whenever they wantwhen i don't

how i hate it when mum has to spend so much on my face without any satisfying results while my friend with flawless skin uses the cheapest skin care product in Watson. WTF -_________-

how jealous could i be when my friends get to put on make up on a blardy hot noon and yet they still look fresh(so fresh til can go advertise for some make up brands) when i don't cause it'll smear within minutes the moment i step out under the sun

how i hate it when i have to run to the washroom during outings with friends to clean my face with CleanandClear oil absorber so tht i look fresh like others do

and how sad could i be whenever my friends come asking me "eh why our face so oily?"

its not like i want it also
T________________________T

this is so memalufyingkan and im telling all these cuz i cant stand the blardy pimple anymore...

sigh.
me shall not whine and complain anymore cuz its bad.
i shall thank god cuz at least i have a face with nose eyes eyebrows eyelash eyeball nostrils and mouth with complete set of teeth

ok. to make me feel better.
i shall believe everything happens for a reason
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.....................
maybe god wants me to value things in life
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.......................
or maybe god wants a prince who's attracted to my inner beauty instead
mwahahhahaaa
just joking..
-_____-
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..........................
or maybe god wants me to contribute some oil to the world
since its so valued now in the current market and for time to come as well!
hahaha
so can u imagine how my skin is

wtf am i talking about now. -_-

too much of CPL input.

-_-
im crazy.
i duno what im talking bout
assignments.
datelines
tutorials.
weird lecturers.
and last but not least.

the surprise from the roomie...
O.O

sigh. im stressed.

goodnight.

To you.

2008-08-19T17:56:00.006+08:00

when i first get to knw you

you have been mysterious.

not only to me i guess.
to everyone as well.
you acted cool in class.
with your thick eyebrows,beautiful eyelashes

under your cap.
*yeahimjealous*

but when time were spent more together
you never fail to make us laugh to kill time
and surprisingly we lived just hundred metres away
since we were born and yet we only get to knw each other after 18 years.

i like it whenever you start arguing with emily over small matters
cuz its just funny seeing both of you trying to stand firm and
defend yourselves..

not too long not too short. but it has been a year since
we really started hanging out together and sharing our problems

sometimes i may not understand you.
but no matter what

i still miss your voice.and the K sessions in Neway.
with you singing your "must-sing" song.
eventho im annoyed when you laughed at me cuz i couldnt read the words
but im equally glad cuz you cant hit the high notes as well.
nyahahahaa...

time flies and its already a year.
if i've ever done any mistakes.
i apologize.

and today im sorry im not able to celebrate the big day of yours.
i can only wish you a

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY!

wishing all the best in your future undertakings
and hope you'll achieve what you want in life.

confusedness

2008-08-18T01:05:00.003+08:00

Why lar. why? why?
what am i doing right now at 2.45 am in the morning.

sigh sigh sigh
sigh sigh sigh

its so late but i cant sleep
i dont feel like talking either thats why im appearing offline.
have been in a state of confusion the whole day
(sorry jian act when u asked if i was emo today . i lied. yes i was)

and to avoid from thinking much ate the whole day to calm down myself T________________T

i think i ve consumed 234934857498023kJ for today....
S was so puzzled whenever i told her i feel like eating.
i had apple pie, korean noodles, apples, bread, 2 big pieces of salmon , large portion of veges, apple pie again and lastly cereals for my supper. wtf...
but it didnt work anyway. i m still feeling uneasy.
uneasy for no reason.
sigh.
and i gotta wake up early tomorrow to work.
yeah i m working. for a malaysian in the foodcourt.it has been a week.
and i gt my first pay last week and ahhh it feeels so goood.
spending my own hard earned money.
its filled with blood and sweat ok..hahaha..im exaggerating this
but i was conned.
i was told its 10buck per hour but lady boss gave me 9bucks instead cuz
she said i am still new ya da ya da.
the best thing was i was clueless bt it when i started working on monday
nobody told me how much i get paid.
and she only told me that when she paid me on friday ....
T______________________T

im so emo now. sigh. what am i waiting for.
bye. goodnight.

i could feel her.

2008-08-17T00:05:00.003+08:00

she was in my mind this evening while i was in a bus ride.

thinking what has it been so hard just to pay her a visit before i leave to Aussie.
i felt the connection between us.

she taught us about everything. not just language alone.
telling us stories about life that we live on.
from a to z.
from books to food .
from animals to sex.
we call her a "walking encyclopedia".

how i remembered her stories with true meaning in it hoping
tht we'd learnt and to be somebody in life .

she's not a typical teacher. she's the greatest teacher i've ever met,
one of the elderly that i've ever respected.
what she' has taught us. its still with me.

and it has been 3 years after we left her to further our studies.
yet i've never tried dropping by catching up with her.
because i ve taken things for granted.
people tend to do so
and realising it only after things happened.
please dont. you ll never wanna feel the pain after it occurs.

i cant believe the news i just received.
the fact that she's gone now. gone forever for a better place.
the hardest thing to accept.
i never knew i ll never have a chance to see her face again
.

and now i can't even pay her my last respect.
no matter what i do
i know i can never turn back time to do what i was supposed to.

Mrs Lee,
You re one of the greatest woman i've ever met.
I'll always remember what you've taught.
May you rest in peace.

once in a lifetime

2008-08-15T00:52:00.010+08:00

how many times do you get to live in a life?
only once i supposed.

such a chance, such an opportunity
not many have it.
but i have it.
how lucky and fortunate i am to be where i am right now
and who i am today.
well, i know i dont come from a very wealthy family.
but what i have is already more than enough.
okay .fine . maybe sometimes i do complain i dont have enough clothings.
but come to think of it, its not like i don't have it at all.
at least i'm still alive under 8 degreecelcius. which simply means i have what i need.
i still remember what was taught in F1.

we were taught how to differentiate wants and needs.
but what it seemed, ppl nowadaysdont know the difference in it,
and have been overlay their needs with wants. well, i m proud to say i have all the basic needs.

a phone.only allowed to own one in f4. when my friends already had one since primary school.
well as you can see my phone's nothing special compared to what's being offered today.
i don't ask or request for canggih canggih phones. because i know i dont neeed one. *yesimnoob*iknowtht*
but serious. i really think its not necessary for me to have such high tech phone yet.
yeah it may not be an iPhone. but its a Motorola V3 (that looks damn cool on me) which can make calls send texts as well as capturing blurry photos.

yes.tell me i look cool. =P

next,
a camera.

where i can capture latest face of me to keep you guys updated.

okay . it may not be the latest model i could get.
with "smileyface-auto detect" function.
but its a Canon ixus 60 which is still functioning very well.
Proof : tonnes of my beautiful face as you can see. all captured by this.

need not me to say.
a lappie.my hubby.
i guess by now its already a basic needs for a student.
it may not be a Sony Vaio or a MacBook
but its a Toshiba. that'll walk me through this two years here in adelaide.
*pleasepleasebegooddontshowmebluescreenanymore* T________T

i may not get an iPod.
but at least i can survive through the bus journeys with this.
my mp3, Creative Muvo.

last but not least,

it may not be a Ferrarri or Lamborghini
but..at least. its a CLK

it has four wheels with four doors.

which has saved me throughout the year i was in KL back then.
if its not for it, i d be taking risk everyday.
i'd still be catching buses back to ipoh frm Puduraya.(howihatethatplace)
hailing for cab by the road side after classes.
with lousy and rude cabdrivers
taking inconvenient public transport.
waiting for bus in dangerous bus stop stands.
no late night out.
no visits to murni anytime i want.

it all thanks to

my CuteLittleKenari
i dont have to go through those anymore.
SIGH...HOW I MISS YOU..
im sorry i caused you a scar due to my impatience.
i ll pay back when i earn my own income. i promise. T_T

name it and
i'v got it.

Dad, Mum,
i know life isnt easy at all.
yet you have provided me with everything i could ever asked for.

im sorry if i complained too much at home and
being frustrated over small matters.
yet you still showered me with pure love.

and i know
its a bonus that i get to be where i am now cuz not everyone gets to.

im appreciating it and i ll be doing real fine here.
you'll nvr know
how i stopped my tears from flowing whenever i call back. =(

Dad, Mum, BroBee, SisMouse,
Enjoy your cruise (without me) sigh.
T_____________T

and i love you.

!@#$^%

2008-08-13T00:28:00.003+08:00

!@#@#%#$&*&^(&^*&%$^@$!@%$#^$^%*&^()*&)*()^*&^%

im sooooooooo PISSED OFF right now
i think im goona give a BF.
not a boyfriend mind you. a BITCHFIT.
and what s a bitch fit? watch white chick.
-_-

get back to story..
i sosoooooooo freaking hate skype

but i cant cuz its freee.

T______________________T

sigh. no money . what to do.
i shall not complain cuz its free.
free stuff is no good stuff.

so much love

2008-08-12T19:46:00.002+08:00

its me its me its me.
yeah its me..
i look worn off right. =(
sigh just because i missed you guys too much.
you guys must be thinking.whats with the flowers.
yes, you are correct
a prince came up to me asking me to be his princess
nyahahaha

hahahahaaa.....Nah. just kidding.
a prince wouldnt be so kiamsap and
present such a small bouquet of flower ok.
it actually belongs to aunty Poh.
aunty Poh and family's is the nicest people on earth
i've met so far.
you've no idea how they treated us
after knowing we are new here.
they treated us as though we re their own kids.
such as flooding our room with food.foood and fooood.
feeding us with nice foooood.
showing us beautiful sceneries
telling us stories again and again.
so much love from so many people.
ah.h.hh.h...i am so blessed =)
See people, im really doing fine here.

& &
after such a long wait i've finally received my parcel today=D
when its supposed to reach by last week.
boooooooooooo pos laju!
so inefficient okay.

im amazed to the things inside tho. o.O
an S size Polo T which doesnt fit me -_-
and another white loose T
and now, what shall i do with both the Ts *thinkthinkthink*
S suggestion was to tear and make it into rugs.LMAO.
*i'venoideawhyyousentit*cuziwasjustkidding*

well,nothing's good compared to
collectin parcels and letters from home .
its like one of the nicest feeling ive ever had.
Thankyou *bigweteye*

p/s : misstuney calling for misshazel. miss hazel mana hilang ? =(

Doubts

2008-08-08T23:41:00.002+08:00

"do you take what it comes or do you wait for something you really want?"

bored of questioning myself the same thing over and over again
yet there's no such thing as answer for it
well, i know the answer actually depends on how you take it personally
i know i know i know i know
goddamnit

i once really believed in waiting for something you really want works

its like waiting for something you think u have fate with
but everyone who walks in,
everything that comes into yr life is what we call fate
how d you judge that then.

i ve lost my way to what i really want
sad isn't it
i dont see lights coming to me

im still in doubt now and then
unstable conditions i would say
realizing the fact that i cant fully accept for who you are yet
the fact that greediness is getting over me
the fact that i expect more than you could give
knwing that im nobody to ask for more
and i cant forgive myself for that.

yet what i m giving is way too little compared to yours i believe
thats something i cant deny
knowing me that i dont want to lie to myself

you know i 'll say its unfair
and yes i know you'll say its alright

It is undefined
i believe in the spark but you take it as a risk
apparently its both different things

"In this world, it is so hard to find someone who would truly accept you for who you are.

Who would love you just the way you are.

Who would not judge you for whatever you do.

Who would forgive you no matter how much you've hurt him/her.

Someone whom you're really comfortable with.

Someone whom you can just be yourself with.

Someone so true and genuine.

Someone whom you can talk to.

Someone who would listen to you without any hesitation.

So when you find that someone who fulfills all of the above, hold on tight to em.

Because these kind don't come around that often"

got this from a friend's blog

yeah you have it all

but i still doubt if i could do the same

im tired of guessing how'd it be if the murni session happened earlier than it was
tired of imagining whats gonna happen in future
and im afraid you ll be getting tired of me being emotional randomly
afraid you are tired of making promises you cant fulfill even if you can

tired of being asked if i belong to someone when i m still uncertain abt that
bored of wondering if your presence would ever make any changes
afraid of not being able to hold on as time goes on

because somethings just not right
apparently there's something missing when it happened
something both of us knew

and
i realised

sometimes its not about the 8months anymore.

sorry, friends! strictly no comments.no questions.cuz there wont be answer. i'll tell when i'll feel like doing so. noworries bout me. im doing alright.just some random thoughts and feelings.

Speechless me

2008-08-08T00:55:00.003+08:00

My all time favourite song:

My love to you I’ll need

I long for your touch

You are the only one, with you

I know I’ll find love that I need

Love for a life time

So please, please believe it’s true

Our love will see us through

For one heart share by two

We’ll always stand, now and forever

Through the sun, and all through the rain

And for all time

You’ll always be my love

So please, please believe it’s true

Our love will see us through

For one heart share by two

We’ll always stand, now and forever

Through the sun, and all through the rain

for all time,

You’ll always be my love

Through the sun, and all through the rain

You’ll always be my love

all through the rain, for all time

You’ll always be, you’ll be my love

***********************************************

its runs through my mind whenever i see you

so much to say
yet no idea where to start
its complicating
or i m complicating it?

would life be simpler if i could just put it all away

sometimes i just hate myself for thinking so much